I don't consider myself as living in reality. Obviously I am typing this text somewhere in the physical world, but my mind just isn't very grounded to my surroundings.
I think in languages that are not my mother tongue, not even what I actually can/usually speak. I came to realize that some thoughts are just out of sync, out of nowhere, and cannot be described or reasoned about. It seems that I am more attached to my twisted vision than the physical events going on.
I don't dislike this situation, but I am worried that it may cause trouble, to myself or to those who I care. I decided long ago that I will do whatever makes me happy.
Maybe I am just living too good a life. Or that I should take my dolls out for a walk.