I noticed that I am trading responsibilities for mental relief. Which is not exactly a good thing, rather a local equilibrium point for my current mind and situation.
Not making any promises now. I have sworn to live to my own happiness. Now I just need to deal with the consequences and adjust my actions according to the results.
I can still achieve things. Stay proactive and act with margin of safety in mind.
P.S. I really need to improve this publishing process.