Goal
I cannot see my goals. I usually forget them days after I made up my mind. Resulting from my lack of perseverance, the only way for me to accomplish things is by forcing the task into habit. But without a goal to target I am quickly lost in the efforts required and the complexity involved.
I want to be something different than myself. I want to be a creator without creating. This self conflict will not resolve itself.
I do not want to regret.